I DID IT

Hey guys,

You may or may not know this about me but I am absolutely petrified of the dentist. Always have been, well since I was little and they took a tooth out without my mouth being completely numb. 

After many checkups going smoothly it was about time a had a cavity. As soon as he said, I started hysterically crying. 

As the appointment got closer I figured it's about time I get my shit together. I'm 18, 19 in a few months (OH GOD). It's about time I try and get over this fear of mine. 

Now, I have recently been looking to buy some new lipsticks and my mum said that if I were to have the appointment with no fuss and no tears she would buy me one. Challenge accepted. 

The dentist suggested that I have my earphones in, listening to my music while he was working on my tooth. And I must say I think it helped quite a sufficient amount. Whenever I felt a bit of pain I would tap to the music more, and really focus on it. 

I came out feeling so proud. I didn't have one tear, no nothing. The receptionist knows that I am scared and even said she was chuffed for me. My mum was also proud. She knows how bad I am so all in all, I still need to chose a lipstick! Haha. 

I wouldn't say that I'm no longer scared of the dentist but I definitely made progress. It means a lot when you know you've made others proud.

This is only a short post but I had to share my little achievement of the week with you all.
I hope you are all doing well, conquering the world.

Adios amigos!xo

Quotes to live by:

Hey guys,

I hope you are all well and feeling fabulous.

This week I have decided to select a few quotes that I have found on Pinterest and share them with you. Sometimes we need a little encouragement or advice.

If you'd like to follow me on Pinterest, click HERE and it shall take you to my profile.

Enjoy:).

'She needed a hero so that's what she became.'

'Empowered women, empower women.' - One of my favourites

'Don't stop until you're proud.'

'Life is tough, my darling, but so are you.'

'Throw kindness around like confetti.'

'Hope is the only thing stronger than fear.'

'Don't count the days, make the days count.'

'In the end, we only regret the chances that we didn't take.'

I hope you found some sort of motivation or inspiration from one of these. If you didn't, Pinterest is really good for things like quotes so have a good look around.

Adios amigos!xo

Regrets

Hey guys,

I have been thinking a lot lately about anything and everything.

Honestly I have been hella stressed lately. I have just dealt with it by staying in bed for most of the day and then late at night driving to the supermarket to buy some alcohol. I don't think my Psoriasis has ever been as bad as it now.

I have had all summer off and bearly done anything with anyone. So if you are one of my friends reading this and I haven't messaged or anything, I am truly sorry. I go back to college on Tuesday and I know from then onwards I am going to be pretty damn busy so I regret not doing anything over the holidays.

As I said above, I go back to college in a couple of days and I can honestly say that I feel ready to tackle it. This last year I was happy with a pass and didn't really want anything higher. However, now I want a distinction. and I'm going to get it. I regret not putting in more effort last year.

I know these are only tiny regrets but I am sick of it. I could sit here and say that I want to live with less regrets - which I do - but its not a reality is it? There's always going to be something, whether its a big deal or not. I just don't want them to be piling up like they are.

I am going to try and say yes and no and mean it. Saying yes to new adventures can be good, but if you are not ready then what's the point? If an opportunity comes up and I feel confident about it I will say yes but if I don't want to do it, I will simply say no. As silly as this sounds, I do a lot of things just so I wont regret not doing so but I've had enough.

I don't really know what else to say about this. I hope you understand what I mean though, If not then I am sorry for wasting your time.

Adios amigos!xo

Update on my skin.

Hey guys,

A few years ago, I think maybe two years or so, I did a post about having Psoriasis. I will link it HERE. Basically I wrote everything down that you'd need to know if you have no idea what it is.

Recently I thought I'd do a little update just so if I look back I have an idea on what it was like, you know to keep track and all the stuff I should probably do.

So, when I last wrote about it, my psoriasis was on my scalp, elbows, my ears, one of my knees and started developing on my shoulder. The worst part was my scalp. it was covering the majority of my head but there was still a lots of space for it to go. Now my head is completely covered. the bottom of my head is worse, the rest is sort of what its like when its starts out - just slightly dry. It has also slightly come out of my hairline, near my neck on both sides and also behind my left ear.

My elbows are now more obviously covered than what they were. Its obvious that I have a skin condition if I don't have a long sleeved top on. My left elbow seems to be focused just in a big patch just after the elbow on my forearm whereas on my right arm, its much more in little spots that are starting to come towards my wrists - its about half way there. This seems much more sore constantly than anywhere else, I don't know why but it is. Its at the point where wearing long sleeved tops can be painful to wear - which sucks.

I don't actually remember it being in my ears so whether it was just starting I'm not sure but it is definitely there now. It's not terrible but its there. this is what has also been progressing in the last year or so. It started by my ears just being itchy and then sore. Now there is the extra skin.

My knees can't seem to make up their mind, it comes and it goes on my knees. It's pretty much the same amount as in my ears so its pretty chill, but it can be sore. Obviously. But it did used to appear on just one knee and now it's both.

I did get a little patch on my shoulder that did begin growing but when I went on my water sports trip with my old school, I was in the sun A LOT. And by the time I got home it was gone. They do say that sun can help and some doctors will suggest a sunbed if its really bad - or so I've heard. But it has completely gone on my shoulder, it hasn't come back and there is still no sign of it so that's good news.

I think that's all of it covered. If you're still confused and didn't read my old post, basically it's extra skin. It's normally either assumed to be or compared to Eczema. The difference is, Eczema is dry skin, Psoriasis is extra skin. I hope this helps because I know most people know of Eczema.

Something I want to discuss is that I was recently on the discover page of Instagram and I saw someone post a picture of their Psoriasis helping to help empower us who have it and reassuring us that its not something to be ashamed of. Now I haven't ever seen an Instagram post like that before. I follow lots of body positive accounts but I haven't come across one who talks about skin conditions before. But to be fair I haven't searched for one. This person also included a hashtag (#Psoriasis) so I clicked onto it, expecting a lot of people who have the same condition being empowering and being happy to show people it's not a gross thing. But I was only met with people recommending creams and oils and such like. Now as nice as it is to see people giving suggestions to help keep the condition bearable, but I was shocked. No one was showing it with a message like 'this is me, this is my condition and its okay' sort of thing. It makes me sad.

I'm not going to apologise for or hide my skin so people wont get offended. I'm not going to pretend it's not there, mainly because you can't but why should I?

I'm definitely more comfortable with it now than I was when I wrote the last post. Which I am proud of myself for.


Now I know this post was mainly for me to look back on but I hoped it helped some of you. Whether you have it too, or whether you had no idea it existed.

Adios amigos!xo