Sunday 21 October 2018

First month wages.

Hey guys,

Firstly if you would like to read last weeks post, click HERE and it shall take you directly.

This month was the first time I had a proper wage. It felt nice to see my ‘savings’ increase. I use quotation marks because I didn’t really have that much left. I decided that because I’d be paid soon I might as well spend that.

I expected to be a little more excited than I was but it was still a nice feeling.
I’m probably more excited this time around. I’ve pretty much spent ALL OF LAST MONTHS WAGES. No idea where it’s all gone.

I know I have bought a few pairs of concert tickets, lots of petrol, maybe some clothes but that’s about it really. No idea where the rest has gone. I’m sure when I get my bank statement I will have a shock. It’s quite surprising how quickly it goes. Normally I am very responsible with my money. I have to be to pay for all things ‘car’, like tax and insurance. But I thought why not be reckless for once. Obviously this month I am back to saving but it was nice to be different for a change.

This months wage is going to be even more because - no joke, I have worked most days. I’ve even done 8 days in a row.. I don’t mind all the hours so much because I actually have fun on my shifts (even though I would like to have a break) The people I work with are funny as hell so we always have a laugh. It’s been nice getting to know a whole new group of people because I haven’t had that in a while. I even have the uniform now so I feel like part of the group and it’s so nice. Cringe but nice.

One of my sisters colleagues have even told her that I am very polite and friendly when she’s been in the shop. It’s really nice to know that you’re doing a good job and leaving a good impression. I’m really happy at this job and when I get used to everything on the post office side of it, I will be well away.

Update: I am no longer only on a temporary contract, but a permanent one!!!:)

I’m very content at the moment. I just hope it stays that way.

Adios amigos!xo

Sunday 14 October 2018

Should I stay or should I go? -monthly goals #10

Hey guys,

I’m back, which you’ll be thrilled to know. It's been a while I KNOW.

I could blame my new job because I seem to be getting a fair few hours lately. Or I could blame stuff that's happening in my personal life. But it's my own fault. I've had time. I'm not sure whether to try and start again with this or not. I'm really torn.


I'm sick of putting pressure on unnecessary things. I think I'm going to make this more casual. Everyone needs to vent and honestly, hardly anyone reads this anymore anyways. So it's not hurting anyone.


I've been thinking of getting a tattoo recently. I have pretty much made up my mind but I just need the courage to go for it. Although I might be better off waiting until after Christmas unless I hurry. I have no idea what to do. Maybe it's a bad idea but I am actually sick of being the sensible one. Everyone I know has made reckless decisions or mistakes so why can't I? Fuck it.

I have been debating on pushing myself a lot recently. I have been reading up on my 'natal chart report' - no idea if that's right. Basically it tells you all about your sign and the positions of all the moons and stuff when you were born and how this contributes to your personality. I think...
I find it quite interesting, because these are specifically more personal than say, just reading your horoscope in a magazine. General horoscopes tend to be vague so they almost relate to anyone reading. But these charts are in depth and seem to be pretty accurate. It's actually quite interesting to me. I've been learning a lot about it all.
Now, in part of it, it said that I'm not the sort of person to go to the cinema alone which is 100% true. Most people I know are the exact same so it's nothing special but it is true. Whenever there is a film I'd love to see I always think 'who would like that, who would go see that with me?' 9/10 I don't even get to go because people are busy, not interested or I don't have much money budgeted.
At the minute there are two films I want to see, A Simple Favour, and A Star Is Born. And tomorrow I'm thinking of treating myself. Because why the heck not? So what if I look like a loner, again...fuck it. I'm sick of caring what others say or give a damn about.

It's either going to make me really anxious and I'll end up leaving early OR it could be really empowering and good for my confidence. So who knows. I shouldn't really go because I've almost spent my first months wage and we're only half way through the month... but lol.


Adios amigos!xo

Just in case you missed my face.