I’m back, which you’ll be thrilled to know. It's been a while I KNOW.
I could blame my new job because I seem to be getting a fair few hours lately. Or I could blame stuff that's happening in my personal life. But it's my own fault. I've had time. I'm not sure whether to try and start again with this or not. I'm really torn.
I'm sick of putting pressure on unnecessary things. I think I'm going to make this more casual. Everyone needs to vent and honestly, hardly anyone reads this anymore anyways. So it's not hurting anyone.
I've been thinking of getting a tattoo recently. I have pretty much made up my mind but I just need the courage to go for it. Although I might be better off waiting until after Christmas unless I hurry. I have no idea what to do. Maybe it's a bad idea but I am actually sick of being the sensible one. Everyone I know has made reckless decisions or mistakes so why can't I? Fuck it.
I have been debating on pushing myself a lot recently. I have been reading up on my 'natal chart report' - no idea if that's right. Basically it tells you all about your sign and the positions of all the moons and stuff when you were born and how this contributes to your personality. I think...
I find it quite interesting, because these are specifically more personal than say, just reading your horoscope in a magazine. General horoscopes tend to be vague so they almost relate to anyone reading. But these charts are in depth and seem to be pretty accurate. It's actually quite interesting to me. I've been learning a lot about it all.
Now, in part of it, it said that I'm not the sort of person to go to the cinema alone which is 100% true. Most people I know are the exact same so it's nothing special but it is true. Whenever there is a film I'd love to see I always think 'who would like that, who would go see that with me?' 9/10 I don't even get to go because people are busy, not interested or I don't have much money budgeted.
At the minute there are two films I want to see, A Simple Favour, and A Star Is Born. And tomorrow I'm thinking of treating myself. Because why the heck not? So what if I look like a loner, again...fuck it. I'm sick of caring what others say or give a damn about.
It's either going to make me really anxious and I'll end up leaving early OR it could be really empowering and good for my confidence. So who knows. I shouldn't really go because I've almost spent my first months wage and we're only half way through the month... but lol.
Adios amigos!xo
Just in case you missed my face.
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