Monday 30 December 2019

I miss you x

Hey guys,

It’s been a while huh?

Honestly I’ve thought about starting up my blog again for a while, I’ve just ‘never had the time’. But I have missed it. A lot has happened.

I’ve missed having my little place to rant and talk lots of nonsense. And it’d be nice to have that back in the new year.

I can’t believe I haven’t posted for all of 2019. But I suppose it could be for the best, I lost all the inspiration for the posts and my heart wasn’t in it any more. They began to mean less to me and it just felt wrong.

But now! I’m so ready. I think I have decided to take this into the new year and I can’t wait to see where this goes.

Currently writing this the night before I turn 21. And I’m kind of freaked out? I’m an adult???? Who thought that was a good idea? I certainly don’t feel like I should be one just yet but alas, here we are.

I’m also slightly excited, it’ll be nice to not have the pressure anymore. There’s such a build up and when it’s just after Christmas it can be a little mentally exhausting. I think I’ve cried like three times in three days haha. Even though I’m so happy, this time of year is a lot. Especially this year. I know nothing will actually change but I can’t help feeling that this is it. After this, there’s no ‘big’ birthdays  left (not really anyway). The things I’ll be looking forward to will be moving out and buying a house, finding a career all that sort of stuff. Which baffles me completely. Although I guess most people probably feel the same.

I look forward to seeing you all soon, in more detail. If you’re still there that is.


Adios.

P.s As it’s almost the start of a new decade, here’s me in 2009 and now. Just for future me to look back on. I’m just glad I found a flattering angle!