Welcoming 2018 with open arms!

Hey guys,

First of all. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!

I am actually writing this at 9am. I know crazy right? Normally I do my blog at the end of the day but because I'll be at work and then OUT, I thought I should be responsible ;).

I'm not going to lie, I really wish I didn't have to work tonight. But It's better to be reliable I suppose. Plus it's pay day so more money for tonight haha. I always have mixed feelings at midnight because obviously it's the new year but the end of my birthday. Everybody cheers at the end of my birthday and it kind of hurts... It's nice everyone is celebrating though so I guess, silver linings.

Anyways, I've decided not to have any new years resolutions this year. They create so much pressure for no reason what so ever. So I am going to set goals, just like I would at the start of a productive day.

Goal 1, say yes to more. Say yes to new adventures and experiences. Don't be as afraid of everything.

Goal 2, practice more makeup. I have seen such an improvement in this year alone so I hope it continues.

Goal 3, drink a little less coke. I don't want it to ruin all of my insides so I am going to try and drink more juice and such.

I think that's all I'm going to do this year. There's always pressure to diet and 'make up' for all the food you've eaten over the holidays. But that doesn't mean torture yourself, just please remember that.

Let's take this new year by storm.
It's going to be a good one, i can feel it.

Adios amigos!xo

Apology to my body.

Hey guys,

First of all, IT'S CHRISTMASSS! Well, Christmas Eve when you're probably reading this. Still very exciting. I am a lot more excited this year, I think because I can legally drink at this festive time of year. I may still be a little hungover from last night but bring on tonight!

Anyways, with the new year creeping round the corner (& my birthday) I thought this post would be a good one. I think I saw 'bodyposipanda' post something or re-post something like this on her Instagram. So here we go.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that when I used to look in the mirror all I saw were flaws - and lots of them. I'm sorry that I used to cry and hurt you when I saw you in the mirror.

I'm sorry that when I saw the stretch marks I was ashamed and wished they weren't there.

I'm sorry to my thighs. I always thought you were too big and looked worse when I sat down. I'm sorry that I saw cellulite as a flaw when you are beautiful. I'm sorry that I didn't show you any respect for carrying me through life.

I'm sorry to my breasts. I wished you were always perky and not droopy. I'm sorry that I wanted to make you smaller.

I'm sorry to my belly, for always wishing you'd disappear. I'm sorry for hiding you in embarrassment instead of embracing you. I'm sorry for not letting you breathe sometimes because I tried my very hardest to make you seem smaller to people.

I'm sorry to my back rolls. I always wore loose shirts to hide you. You're cute as hell and I love you.

I'm sorry arms, that I hid you for many years because I thought you were disgusting. I'm sorry I didn't let you breathe as much as you should have in the past summers.

I'm sorry that you haven't been given as much appreciation as you deserve. You are beautiful. You are worthy. And you definitely shouldn't hide from anyone - including yourself. I'm sorry that only now am I realising how great you actually are, you have been all along.

Lots of love Katie xo

This is a very open post for me to do and I hope it helps. All bodies are beautiful and worthy - big, small and everything in between.
I am happy to leave all these negative thoughts in 2017. There will be times when I am hormonal and feel gross but I am definitely going to treat my body with more respect.

Merry Christmas.
Adios amigos!xo

CHRISTMAS!

Hey guys,

So its a week until Christmas Eve. (Side note: this means its two weeks until my birthday!!) I can't believe how quick it seems to have come this year. Seems like only yesterday Britain was brought to a halt thanks to the heatwave we had. Baffling.

Anyways, this year we have had a real tree. We had one a couple of years ago and I loved it. My mum and I had to obviously go to a garden center and she let me choose the tree. That was probably a mistake in her eyes... Its now part of the family. It is honestly as wide as half the room and reaches the ceiling. And I'm not even exaggerating. It looked a lot smaller when i pointed it out.But I love it.

Normally me and my dad decorate the tree while mum watches but this year my dad only put the lights on so it was left to me. Not that I mind but I would've preferred to chose a colour scheme and all that. My mum just insisted on silver. So unfortunately the tree isn't that colourful.

Photo's will follow, and I very am happy with it. It definitely feels like Christmas now.

 

I am so excited this year. I don't know what it is but I feel like all the bad things are taking a break from me for a while so I'm going to make the most of it. This will be the first year I celebrate Christmas/ my birthday (I haven't decided which yet) in town. Its going to be very weird because I'm not one for change. Knowing me I'll get overwhelmed and end up crying in the taxi on the way home. Lets hope not though!


I hope you all have a great week and enjoy yourselves.
Adios amigos!xo

What I'm listening to & I'm a celebrity thoughts - spoilers.

Hey guys,

I'm a celeb has now finished for the year!:( I'm gutted. It's by far one of the best shows and I look forward to it every year. I'm extremely happy Toff won. I wish Iain would've been second and that Jennie was third. I really think they deserved it. Toff was such a badass in there completing the trials and then being the most positive of all. I think she was everyone favorite.

But poor Iain. I'm happy he got down to the final but still. I think he had such a journey in there and really showed who he was. I honestly hope that he sees all the love and support he has received online.

I have a lot more thoughts on what has happened in the jungle however I want to keep this short and sweet so I can go to sleep sooner. So here's a list of the songs that have taken my fancy.

Dodie - Absolutely Smitten
Dodie - In the Middle
Dodie - Would You Be So Kind
Ed Sheeran - Perfect
Noah Cyrus - Stay Together
Taylor Swift - Gorgeous
Selena Gomez Ft. Marshmellow - Wolves
Sia - Ho Ho Ho
Leona Lewis - One More Sleep
Charlie Puth - How Long
Jason Derulo, French Montana - Tip Toe
Portugal. The Man - Feel It Still
Miley Cyrus - Inspired
Michael Malarkey - Mongrels
Ariana Grande - Santa Tell Me
Ariana Grande - Santa Baby
Ariana Grande - Winter Things
Niall Horan - Too Much To Ask
Louis Tomlinson - Miss You
Rita Ora - Anywhere


That's all I an find on my Spotify playlist for now. They'll be more soon I'm sure. But I hope you enjoyed this post, if not I hope you found something new to listen to. Have a great week!

Adios amigos!xo

Another one of those Catch Up's.

Hey guys,

Happy December!!

You know what that means...Advent calender's have been opened, Blogmas will have started (for some, wink wink) chaos is filling shops and Michael Bublé will have been played.

IT'S CHRISTMAS! - I may be a little excited this year.

I'll keep the Christmas talk to a minimal as that'll all come soon enough haha.

Anyway, what have I been up to? Good question.

My new mattress came yesterday and I managed to pull it upstairs, unwrap it and get it onto my bed - ALL BY MYSELF. I'm sill proud of myself because its a thick mattress! I was worried that I chose the wrong one but I definitely had nothing to worry about. I've barely left my bed all day, not even sleeping, just chilling on it. I am very impressed.

I also treated myself to some new lipsticks (obviously because I'm obsessed) so I shall include photos and the names below.

Jeffree Star: Diamond

Jeffree Star: Redrum

Last week my post was a little none existent. That's just because of an intense pain I had constantly over the weekend. The doctors found some sort of issue with my liver, nothing drastic just maybe a virus. I seem to be okay again but I am due for more blood tests to double check. So posts will be back to normal again. I hate missing a week so I had to post something but I needed the break. 

I will leave it at that, There's only so much boring content I have at the minute I'm afraid. But next weeks post will be the last 'normal' post before the ones running up to Christmas. I don't quite have a name for it yet but you'll find that out if you return:)

Adios amigos!xo

Postponing this

Hey guys, 

I hate to miss a weeks upload. So I’m writing this. I will change all of this tomorrow for an actual post. 

I’ve slept most of the day mainly because of drinking last night. But I’m also having some health issues which I’m going to see a doctor about tomorrow. 

I need to stop being so strict about missing a week, it’s not that big of a deal. At the end of the day I need to value my health so that’s what I’m trying to do. This will change in a few hours time but for now. 

Adios amigos!xo

Trying something new

Hey guys,

First of, IM A CELEB is back!!!


Absolutely ready for it. I already love the camp mates and some have already surprised me but maybe I'll leave this for next weeks post.

So, if you are new here. Hello, I'm Katie and I am what most people consider 'fat'. However I have been on  VERY long journey of self love. The past few years I have accepted myself a lot more but recently I feel like I have made a significant amount of progress.

By following Instagram accounts of lovely women such as 'bodyposipanda'  'nolatrees' 'cheezybhole' I was able to see and understand everyone has different shapes. AND HELL ITS OKAY!

I have rolls and I love them (at the minute anyway). They are welcome and I'm not going to apologise for them anymore. They are a part of me, and fabulous.

My actual belly itself is taking a little more time but that's welcome here to. I bought a jumpsuit.
Never thought I 'd ever own any. They do tend to show of your belly as it is like having a shirt tucked into trousers. But I love it! I took the plunge and ordered two sizes (for safety reasons obviously), I surprised myself and I am glad I did. I will include a photo. Its not everyone's cup of tea but its mine, which is all that matters. Still not quite sure what shoes would be okay to pair with it though!

(will also look better when ironed lol)

I might make it my 'Christmas' outfit for this year. I also have a pink Santa hat so I guess it'd work???
When I go out in public in it I will be very, very proud of myself.

As I finish this post I have nearly finished my alcoholic beverage, sat with a Santa hat on, listening to Christmas songs. I am having a great time celebrating. I don't think my cat is as amused as I am though. Anyways, I hope everyone is as happy as I am right now as I type this.

See you next week.
Adios amigos!xo

Christmas is looming..

Hey guys,

I hope you are all well.

My previous two posts were a bit naff and hopefully this one is a little better. I am finally writing on my laptop again and it is so much easier than my phone.

Yes, Christmas is on it's way and to me it seems to be approaching quite quickly. The John Lewis advert was released meaning it acceptable to play Christmas songs, full blast.

Me and mum have been buying new baubles and lights ready for our tree this year. We are having another real tree, which I am buzzing for. Last year we didn't have a tree up because of some sudden arrangements, so instead I had one in my room. But this year it will feel like Christmas, properly.

There's something about having a film on at night with the tree lit up, while you eat some Quality Street. And I'm so excited for that feeling again.

I have bought one present and one Christmas card so far. Which is quite unprepared but I will get there. I'm hoping to buy a few this week as I'm going shopping with a friend but who knows, it may be spent on food instead.

I am hoping to do blogmas this year, but I'm not too sure yet honestly. I have some time to think about it. Maybe ill do what I did the first year I did it, where I only did 12 days.

I have just sat for about half an hour just going through my old Snapchats at around this time last year and it is so strange how much I feel I've changed. I mean, I don't look any different but I just see it. I'm definitely more mature and have grown as a person. But it is so strange looking back.  I know this part wasn't Christmassy but still. I intended to find a cute photo to include but I found a Christmassy one from last year so enjoy:).

Until next week where I may do a makeup look???? I say this ALL the time but I have been collecting some new makeup products so maybe ill come up with some looks.

Adios Amigos!xo

Carefree

Hey guys,

So I keep saying about pre-writing but I haven’t even had the chance this week which sucks so this post might be a shambles but hey ho, it normally is.

Tonight is bonfire night, and I’m actually devastated about couldn’t go watch some fireworks because of work. I mean I can’t complain because I got paid but still. I like to go every year as it’s an amazing  fireworks display. Although I could see some from the window at work.


I went out on Thursday and it was great. By out I mean out drinking with Hannah, my friend. I may have had a little too much but it was worth it. I had a great time. I looked great, although I couldn’t help but sometimes feel Inferior compared to everyone else having fun and looking stunning while doing so. Still the cocktails were delicious and kept coming.

I must say I really enjoyed the end of the night when I sung Disney in the middle of town with a complete stranger. He was really going for it, and loving life. Actually made me feel like I had nothing to worry about - carefree. Nothing to concentrate on or fix or anything. It was just fun. I haven’t felt like that in a while

I hope to have more moments like that.

(I will add some photos from taht night when I get my laptop back from my sister, can’t seem to add photos on my phone)

Audi’s amigos!xo

Hey guys,

So, I want to first apologise for not going back to last weeks posts and adding a makeup look. It honestly just slipped my mind. I’ve also not even ordered the makeup pallet that I want yet, which is what I was going to treag myself to with my first weeks wage - that was three weeks ago now lol. Just can’t get myself to do it for some reason!

Anyway, I’m not sure whether I’ve mentioned it in my blog yet but I have left College. I just need to pick up my work and I’m all done. It was stressing me out too much and I decided it wasn’t worth it.
I’m pretty sure I have mentioned this before so I’ll just keep it short.

I recently bought some new makeup with money I had previously saved (from before I started working). It mainly was things that I needed to repurchase such as liquid liner and mascara. But I also go a new nyx lip lingerie in the shade seduction. I love it! It’s such a lovely shade. I will obviously include photos. As long as I have decent photos of course.


Hopefully I shall buy some more makeup. I heard that nyx are putting all of the lipsticks together in a box as minis so I might see how much that would be. I do think it’s a good idea because you can try all the shades before commuting to a full size one. You can see whether you like the shade on you or not which is helpful, you just have to guess normally hahah.


I think maybe I’ve run out of things to mention so I’ll leave it there. Maybe I’ll add more but we all know what I’m like by now. But I am off tomorrow so I hopefully will.

Adios amigos!xo

Halloween look

Hey guys,

So first of all if you haven’t read my last post where I talk about my first job you can read it HERE.

On Friday was my dads birthday and today is my mums birthday. So a busy week indeed. Although we haven’t really done anything special, it seems I’ve been busy. Because I work now from 5pm, I only have the morning with them. But still it’s been lovely. And I hope they have both enjoyed their days.

Now it means is halloween! And I’m so excited. Not that I’m doing anything special but I just love the thought of it. I might buy myself some wine and watch scary films by myself, because yes that sounds pretty good to me.

I’d love to dress up for Halloween but I don’t really have anywhere to go. Unless I go round town but I’m not sure yet. I guess I’ll ask my friends what they’re doing. (For any friends of mine reading - HINT HINT)

But yes, I did intend to do a certain makeup look for this post but I haven’t been able to get the pallet that I want to use for it yet. So hopefully I’ll just add that section into this - if I do it’ll be on Tuesday.

I’ll also add a minimal halloween look tomorrow, a more wearable one so those of you at work or whatever can still celebrate if you want. So check back tomorrow and Tuesday nights for those!

And until then,
Adios amigos!xo

Working?!

Hey guys,

So guess what???????

I finally got a job!

Woo, it’s about bloody time. But I can honestly say that I’m kind of enjoying it so far. There’s something’s that I still need to work on but to be fair, tonight is only my fifth day. Apparently I have picked it up quickly. I’ve obviously never had a job before this so I don’t know what’s normal but I think I have done well.

I’d say that even by now my confidence has improved immensely. Basically I work in a pizza shop, taking orders (over the phone and over the counter), get sauces and drink ready, make sure the workspace is tidy and pack up orders. I think that’s everything anyway. But because I have to greet customers and speak with confidence it has started to skyrocket. So.. go me.

I honestly thought that this would be an easy job to start out with. I’d get to learn how to use a till, be able to speak to people better (and not be awkward) and such. I’d just learn what a working environment is like. However it isn’t as easy as I anticipated.

On Friday we got so busy we were struggling to get orders out. The phone wouldn’t stop ringing, so I was constantly going from the till to the phone for like four hours straight. I do prefer it busy but not too busy like that. Mainly because, I have to answer the phones and take orders, but I also have to sort the complaints. Some woman rang up and would not stop ranting. Obviously I panicked because it’s me, and there’s nothing I can do or say. I don’t have that authority to say things like ‘we’ll give you a discount’ or whatever. In the end I had to hand over the phone to someone else and have a minute outside. I do think I’ll get better at handelling it though, it’ll just take time.

The people who order, on the phone and in the shop, have mostly been polite and very considerate. When I’m working out the change I explain that I’m new to this and they normally just wait patiently and reassure me. Which is nice. It’s just the odd few - which I can cope with.

The hours aren’t bad either, but the only problem is College now. I’m not sure whether to leave and just stay with the job now. I think I will end up leaving. Despite most people advising I stay. I still need to do a lot of thinking.



Today I got my first weeks wage. I technically only started on Wednesday but still. I’m loving having money now. I will probably spend it all tomorrow but maybe, just maybe they’ll be some left to last me the week!

So far everything is good. I’m happy.

Audi’s amigos.!xo

What I want to do

Hey guys,

I hope you are all well.

I should really start pre-writing these but I never have an idea for the post in the week. I have been doing this for over three years, you would think I know what I'm doing by now huh?

But I don't so here's another ramble.

My dad asked me today what I would want to do (career wise). I have had this conversation with many different people giving many different answers over the years.

However now, I have come to the conclusion that I have no idea because of all the options.

I could see myself doing a lot of things which is the problem.


Hopefully I'll get somewhere any finally make a decision, but I guess if I don't, its not the end of the world.

Honestly I'd love to make some money selling artwork but I'm not that confident just yet. I think I've mentioned that before but hey, I'll mention it again. Realistically, I'll probably end up working in a shop that I don't even like but hey ho, at least I'll be getting some money.

Also recently I bought another Jeffery Star Lipstick. 'Werido' which is black. and my god it is stunning. the formula is great and the colour is beautiful. I will say though that it looks better if you do one layer, and let it dry and then do another. This helps get the best colour, or so I've found. You can just do one layer but its up to you.

So to make sure this post isn't too short I will add a couple of cute photos. Please, enjoy.

I know this post isn't all that interesting for you guys, but maybe one day, I'll get my shit together.

Adios amigos!xo

I love it

Hey guys,

I already know I am going to be disappointed with this post. I had already thought of something to write about but I've had to make that next weeks post instead. So apologies for this post.


So if you read my last post, you will know that I was able to get a new lipstick. Now I was after another Jeffery Star liquid lipstick as I have 'Crocodile Tears' from his Christmas collection which I love. And I have been eyeing up several colours which I'd love.

After a lot of thought I decided on 'Blow Pony'. I absolutely adore this. I must say I expected it to be a tad lighter than what it dried as. When its first applied and still wet it looks like the photos online but as it dries, I personally think it gets slightly darker. Still looks fabulous though.

I wore this properly last night - by properly I mean for a more lengthy amount of time in public.

I must say I was really impressed. It is a lot less drying than my other one but yet also lasted lot longer without needing as many touch-ups. This is very handy for when you are out and about and don't really want to worry about having to check your lipstick all the time.

I don't actually have anything bad to say about it, other than the fact it does kind of stain your lips pink (but is that really a bad thing?). It doesn't stay for long but you can definitely notice it.

I'm very excited to get another one soon. Who knows what colour I'll go for next time;).

Here are some photos from last night. I had such a lovely time, not that anything was really different I must've just allowed myself to have fun. STRANGE.

Aww look how cute. :)

Adios amigos!xo

I DID IT

Hey guys,

You may or may not know this about me but I am absolutely petrified of the dentist. Always have been, well since I was little and they took a tooth out without my mouth being completely numb. 

After many checkups going smoothly it was about time a had a cavity. As soon as he said, I started hysterically crying. 

As the appointment got closer I figured it's about time I get my shit together. I'm 18, 19 in a few months (OH GOD). It's about time I try and get over this fear of mine. 

Now, I have recently been looking to buy some new lipsticks and my mum said that if I were to have the appointment with no fuss and no tears she would buy me one. Challenge accepted. 

The dentist suggested that I have my earphones in, listening to my music while he was working on my tooth. And I must say I think it helped quite a sufficient amount. Whenever I felt a bit of pain I would tap to the music more, and really focus on it. 

I came out feeling so proud. I didn't have one tear, no nothing. The receptionist knows that I am scared and even said she was chuffed for me. My mum was also proud. She knows how bad I am so all in all, I still need to chose a lipstick! Haha. 

I wouldn't say that I'm no longer scared of the dentist but I definitely made progress. It means a lot when you know you've made others proud.

This is only a short post but I had to share my little achievement of the week with you all.
I hope you are all doing well, conquering the world.

Adios amigos!xo

Quotes to live by:

Hey guys,

I hope you are all well and feeling fabulous.

This week I have decided to select a few quotes that I have found on Pinterest and share them with you. Sometimes we need a little encouragement or advice.

If you'd like to follow me on Pinterest, click HERE and it shall take you to my profile.

Enjoy:).

'She needed a hero so that's what she became.'

'Empowered women, empower women.' - One of my favourites

'Don't stop until you're proud.'

'Life is tough, my darling, but so are you.'

'Throw kindness around like confetti.'

'Hope is the only thing stronger than fear.'

'Don't count the days, make the days count.'

'In the end, we only regret the chances that we didn't take.'

I hope you found some sort of motivation or inspiration from one of these. If you didn't, Pinterest is really good for things like quotes so have a good look around.

Adios amigos!xo

Regrets

Hey guys,

I have been thinking a lot lately about anything and everything.

Honestly I have been hella stressed lately. I have just dealt with it by staying in bed for most of the day and then late at night driving to the supermarket to buy some alcohol. I don't think my Psoriasis has ever been as bad as it now.

I have had all summer off and bearly done anything with anyone. So if you are one of my friends reading this and I haven't messaged or anything, I am truly sorry. I go back to college on Tuesday and I know from then onwards I am going to be pretty damn busy so I regret not doing anything over the holidays.

As I said above, I go back to college in a couple of days and I can honestly say that I feel ready to tackle it. This last year I was happy with a pass and didn't really want anything higher. However, now I want a distinction. and I'm going to get it. I regret not putting in more effort last year.

I know these are only tiny regrets but I am sick of it. I could sit here and say that I want to live with less regrets - which I do - but its not a reality is it? There's always going to be something, whether its a big deal or not. I just don't want them to be piling up like they are.

I am going to try and say yes and no and mean it. Saying yes to new adventures can be good, but if you are not ready then what's the point? If an opportunity comes up and I feel confident about it I will say yes but if I don't want to do it, I will simply say no. As silly as this sounds, I do a lot of things just so I wont regret not doing so but I've had enough.

I don't really know what else to say about this. I hope you understand what I mean though, If not then I am sorry for wasting your time.

Adios amigos!xo

Update on my skin.

Hey guys,

A few years ago, I think maybe two years or so, I did a post about having Psoriasis. I will link it HERE. Basically I wrote everything down that you'd need to know if you have no idea what it is.

Recently I thought I'd do a little update just so if I look back I have an idea on what it was like, you know to keep track and all the stuff I should probably do.

So, when I last wrote about it, my psoriasis was on my scalp, elbows, my ears, one of my knees and started developing on my shoulder. The worst part was my scalp. it was covering the majority of my head but there was still a lots of space for it to go. Now my head is completely covered. the bottom of my head is worse, the rest is sort of what its like when its starts out - just slightly dry. It has also slightly come out of my hairline, near my neck on both sides and also behind my left ear.

My elbows are now more obviously covered than what they were. Its obvious that I have a skin condition if I don't have a long sleeved top on. My left elbow seems to be focused just in a big patch just after the elbow on my forearm whereas on my right arm, its much more in little spots that are starting to come towards my wrists - its about half way there. This seems much more sore constantly than anywhere else, I don't know why but it is. Its at the point where wearing long sleeved tops can be painful to wear - which sucks.

I don't actually remember it being in my ears so whether it was just starting I'm not sure but it is definitely there now. It's not terrible but its there. this is what has also been progressing in the last year or so. It started by my ears just being itchy and then sore. Now there is the extra skin.

My knees can't seem to make up their mind, it comes and it goes on my knees. It's pretty much the same amount as in my ears so its pretty chill, but it can be sore. Obviously. But it did used to appear on just one knee and now it's both.

I did get a little patch on my shoulder that did begin growing but when I went on my water sports trip with my old school, I was in the sun A LOT. And by the time I got home it was gone. They do say that sun can help and some doctors will suggest a sunbed if its really bad - or so I've heard. But it has completely gone on my shoulder, it hasn't come back and there is still no sign of it so that's good news.

I think that's all of it covered. If you're still confused and didn't read my old post, basically it's extra skin. It's normally either assumed to be or compared to Eczema. The difference is, Eczema is dry skin, Psoriasis is extra skin. I hope this helps because I know most people know of Eczema.

Something I want to discuss is that I was recently on the discover page of Instagram and I saw someone post a picture of their Psoriasis helping to help empower us who have it and reassuring us that its not something to be ashamed of. Now I haven't ever seen an Instagram post like that before. I follow lots of body positive accounts but I haven't come across one who talks about skin conditions before. But to be fair I haven't searched for one. This person also included a hashtag (#Psoriasis) so I clicked onto it, expecting a lot of people who have the same condition being empowering and being happy to show people it's not a gross thing. But I was only met with people recommending creams and oils and such like. Now as nice as it is to see people giving suggestions to help keep the condition bearable, but I was shocked. No one was showing it with a message like 'this is me, this is my condition and its okay' sort of thing. It makes me sad.

I'm not going to apologise for or hide my skin so people wont get offended. I'm not going to pretend it's not there, mainly because you can't but why should I?

I'm definitely more comfortable with it now than I was when I wrote the last post. Which I am proud of myself for.


Now I know this post was mainly for me to look back on but I hoped it helped some of you. Whether you have it too, or whether you had no idea it existed.

Adios amigos!xo

Bank Holiday!

Hey guys,

I'm sorry, this post is late. Not that any of you probably read this religiously but still. Its the only thing I've been able to keep up so to say I'm disappointed in myself is an understatement. However I'm not going to beat myself up over it. Just because I cant be bothered.

Anyway, I hope you've all had a lovely weekend, whether you're celebrating a Bank holiday or whether its a normal weekend and you've just taken it steady.

My sister and dad recently ordered some peach Lambrini and I must say its the most delicious thing I've tasted. So I celebrated with a bottle of that, as you do.

Today though, I accidentally treated myself to some makeup. I only wanted a few things but I just kept looking. I re-purchased my facemask, some fake eyelashes because they were 1/3 off so I obviously picked up two packets. But they also stocked Elf too which I have wanted to try for a while so I had to indulge. I ended up getting the poreless primer, and two baked highlighters as I have heard these look lovely on the skin but I guess ill find out and update you.

I cant wait to try these out tomorrow.

I'm going to keep this post short as where I am, its a Bank Holiday so being hunched on a laptop isn't my idea of fun.

But I hope to post on time next week with a better post, so fingers crossed.

Also this weather is beautiful, lets see if it will last shall we?

Adios amigos!xo

Top 5: Things I always search for on pinterest.

Hey guys,

As always, here's a link to my last post which I mainly just spoke about the new lipstick I bought but feel free to have a cheeky lil read.

This weeks post, however is a little different than what I normally do. And well done to me for thinking of something new to do for a change! It will probably be a little short but hey ho lets give it a try.

These are my top 5 things to look for on Pinterest.

1. Make Up Inspiration - I personally like to be expressive with makeup. So say if I go for a neutral/brown look, I'm probably just wanting something simple, either because I don't have much time or because I want to pair it with a bold lip. However I also like to go for bold eye looks and by looking on Pinterest you can find some good inspiration.

2. Hair-spiration - Following on from the last one (kinda?), I like to think that one day I'll get the nerve to go for a bold colour for my hair. But I like looking at all the different shades, combinations and styles, seeing which I like and would maybe eventually try.

3. Home interior - Now I know this one is quite popular on the site so I wont ramble too much. However I do think this is a must have for everyone. You can get some ideas of what you'd like to do to your future or current house regarding colours of paint, wallpaper, themes, sofas, kitchens and so on. I definitely think this is very useful.

4. Quotes - If you ever need a cute quote to send to your friend or an empowering post, maybe even a reality check, Pinterest is great. I don't really need to say much more other than the fact that these also make great phone backgrounds.

5. Art/Illustrations - If you didn't already know, I am still studying Art & Design at college. So this is basically a must have for me. We always have so many projects on at the same time, all very different so I have lots of boards that are focused on these projects alone. Such as 'Shed' and 'Life drawing'. These are incredibly helpful when you're looking for inspiration or artists to write about. I often also find that once I have made a board for the project, I am more excited to do the final outcomes. I also have a few art boards just for things I personally like such as illustration and abstract work.

So there you have it, my top five things I search for on Pinterest. Now there is a hell of a lot more you can find on there so there is something for everyone. If you'd like to follow me on Pinterest you can click HERE and it will take you to my profile. I hope this was some-what helpful or at least a pleasant read for you all. If not, it doesn't really make a change!

Adios amigos!xo

Treating myself.

Hey guys,

I hope you are all doing well. If you missed my last post, you can read it HERE.  highly recommend you give it a read. But hey, I may be biased.

Anyway, It has been a while since I have been shopping and I miss it so much. Until I can get a job I have to keep the pennies close so buying endless amount of shoes had to be put to a stop. It breaks my little heart.

But when my friend, Hannah asked me for help when buying makeup I couldn't resist. I bloody loved it. I don't think she knew how much money all of the products would cost, sorry Hannah! Although she still doesn't really have any idea what she's doing I think she learned a lot, so I'm proud. Its nice when a friend wants to try makeup out. Especially because it's one of the few things I'm really passionate about.

Now, I managed the whole trip without buying anything - I know, a miracle. But then a few days later I really needed to repurchase my eyebrow product. And because you have to pay for postage I convinced myself that it isn't worth it for just one product.. So I would treat myself to a lipstick. Which then turned into three. OOPS.

I earned it so why the hell not.

I bought the NYX Lip Lingerie Lipstick in 'After Hours' which is a gorgeous shade I must say. I have had three other shades so I knew what the formula would be like but I needed to replace the other dark brown shade I had as I was literally scraping the sides of the tube.

I also bought two NYX Liquid Suede's, in 'Little Denim Dress' and 'Orangecounty'. I absolutely adore both of these shades. The blue might be my favourite, despite most people I know not being to sure on the colour. And the orange is definitely a more 'normal' colour but it is very vibrant. It is stunning.
The pictures I have of the orange one don't really do it justice, it looks quite red but it is definitely orange.

I must say that the blue looks better with a couple of coats on as when it dries down it loses a bit of the brightness in it. That's the only way I can explain it. But it stays the same texture and stays on the same. They do transfer easily but I just wouldn't eat with this lipstick on. They apply so easily too. The applicator is simple but does the job. It's very easy to get a clean application, you don't have to worry about being to precise as, for me, the applicator does a lot of the work for you.

I do think these could be a little cheaper however I still think they're great. Definitely worth treating myself with. I hope you all have a great week, and why not even treat yourself? I dare you.

Adios amigos!xo

Something I don't Understand.

Hey guys,

How is it August, I know everyone says this a lot but seriously. I swear the first half of the year goes a lot quicker than the second. It freaks me out honestly.

Anyway, I have debated on doing this post for quite sometime now. I was starting to think the subject was irrelevant now but I guess it isn't.

So, you're probably thinking, gosh just tell us already. Well a year ago or so (I think?) Suicide Squad was released. Now, I went to the cinemas to see this with my dad and I thoroughly enjoyed the film. I left the cinema feeling pretty chuffed with the film.

Then came Halloween and lots and lots of people of all ages showed interest in dressing as Harley Quinn. Even I did a makeup look for the Beauties On Fire collab I did for a while.

I bet you know where I'm going with this.

I haven't read any comics, or seen any batman films or such. However when I saw the Suicide Squad trailer it interested me. So I can only really have an opinion from this one film, please bare with.

She was a badass. A strong badass.

There was a scene that interested me and I think got a lot of attention. She is sat on the car smiling waiting for the others to return. But just before she was crying. She went from crying her eyes out to then pretend to be okay for the others - if I remember rightly. How bloody strong is that? We all do it. My mum does it when she's upset but doesn't want me to know. We ALL do it. I definitely think this was a relatable scene for a lot of people, men and women. There was also a scene where she is in an elevator/lift fighting off people all by herself (obviously bosses it) and then just struts out to meet up with the 'squad'. Strong woman indeed.

Its only recently that the major film industries have focused on a strong female role. Don't get me wrong there are plenty out there but now its more of a big thing. For example, wonder woman. A wonderful (lmao) bad ass woman with a whole movie for her. FYI I enjoyed this film too. So it wouldn't be a surprise that maybe this year, women may want to dress up as her. And I don't blame them.

But last Halloween I saw all of the Harley Quinn's imaginable on twitter. I loved it. So many people loving this character so much and rightly so too. I remember seeing someone tweet about it, saying 'if they see another, they would flip' or something. 'Basic and no originality'. Something along those lines.

WHERE DO I EVEN START?

Anyone can dress up how they like, being who they want to be - that's the point. Also 'no originality' ?? It doesn't even matter. You don't judge how many vampires there are, or witches, superman's, pirates or I don't  know skeletons (ect.).

I cant express how much I hate the term 'Basic'. Starbucks was considered basic and probably still is but if you like Starbucks good for you! Hell, I love it! Doesn't make me basic, it means I like the drinks they do. People have their preferences and that's okay. SO LEAVE THEM TO IT WITHOUT SHAMING THEM. Okay? okay.

It just really baffled me. Why wouldn't someone support another person dressing up as their favourite character. A strong ass female or not.

Adios amigos!xo

What I'm Listening To: July

Hey guys,

Glad you could stop by. Apparently you guys like these posts so here is another for you to enjoy. This post will most likely be short so maybe I'll pre-write next weeks and make it a little longer. Before I get into this post, if you would like to read my last 'What I'm Listening To' post, click HERE. And if
you like to read last Sundays post about camping, then click HERE.


Onto the tunes..

Miley Cyrus - Malibu
Katy Perry - Bon Appetit
Selena Gomez - Bad Liar
The Black Keys - Weight Of Love
Bastille - Good Greif
Generation X - Dancing With Myself
Ellie Goulding - Still Falling For You
Jason Derulo, Nicki Minaj - Swalla
Cigarettes After Sex - K
Liam Payne - Strip That Down
Luis Fonsi, Daddy Yankee, Justin Beiber - Despacito
DJ Khaled, Justin Beiber, Quavo - I'm the One
Maggie Lindemann, Cheat Codes X CADE (remix) - Pretty Girl
The Jon Spencer Blues Explosion - Bellbottoms
Carla Thomas - B-A-B-Y
Kehlani - Gangsta
Panic! At The Disco - Bohemian Rhapsody
Camila Cabello - Crying In the Club
Haim - Want You Back
Demi Lovato - Sorry Not Sorry
Nick Jonas - Champagne Problems
Alex Turner - Stuck on the puzzle
Martin Luke Brown - Into Yellow
Maddie Baillio, Ariana Grande, Dove Cameron - Mama, I'm A Big Girl Now
Imagine Dragons - Thunder
Train - Play That Song
Hailee Steinfeld - Most Girls
Harry Styles - Kiwi
Lucy Spraggan - Dear You
Auli'i Cravalho - How Far I'll Go
DNCE - Truthfully
Charlie Puth - Attention
Kesha - Woman
Rita Ora - Your Song


So that's pretty much it. They are the songs I am currently living life to at the moment. I must say, music is getting better and better.
I hope this maybe gives you some new songs to listen to and maybe love. I know I do.

Again, I know this is very short but maybe next week will be longer, for those of you who prefer reading haha.

Adios amigos!xo

First time camping.

Hey guys,

As always before I get into the post HERE is a link to my last post where I spoke about my Love Island predictions. And can I just say, it finishes tomorrow and I am definitely not emotionally ready. Anyone else?

As you can tell from the title of this blog post, I tried something new recently.

On Friday my friend, Hannah, suggested to me that I should go camping with her and her 'explorer' group. Immediately I rejected. That is two new things that I, for certain, knew that I'd have to face - Camping and new people. My dad even joined in trying to persuade me to go. Don't get me wrong, I thought about it. I have wanted to try camping for a while now but when they're new things involved I really think about my decision.
I eventually had to tell her that I would think about it because she wasn't going to stop going on about it. I did think about it a little.

However on Saturday I had a bad day. Not drastic but I was stressed, anxious and felt very 'small' (that's the only word I'd use). First off I had a dream where I put petrol in my car, but as it was my first time I was a little nervous, making sure to ask my dad if everything was okay and he didn't respond. Making me panic - because of the whole 'if you put the wrong petrol in you could ruin your car' kinda thing.

My mum, bless her, shouted me asking if I wanted cheese on toast for breakfast which obviously awoke me. Boy did I snap. I don't like getting up as it is but I was so stressed from my dream that I woke up in the same state of mind. I have never experienced this before but now I get why people hate their partners when they dream they cheated. I get it.

When I finally got out of bed and got dressed, I realised that my chest hurt a little, like I had been scratched. So I look, turns out my favourite bra had betrayed me. The wire had poked out and scratched me as I put it on. God damn bras...

I soon got over that because getting a new bra is pretty cool. It makes you feel good. I'm sure all of you women out there know what I'm talking about. But I also noticed that my Psoriasis was already flaring up, just from that.

I got downstairs and apologised to my mum and explained my dream to her. She was cool about it, probably used to the fact that I don't like getting up inn a morning. But then I had to chose to either wait in for a family member that I don't really know or interact with or to drive my sister down to work and feed her dog. I obviously chose to drive, for one I love driving and two, I wasn't feeling human interaction that day and didn't really want to 'pretend' to enjoy it. But yes, I go and everything is okay. I even snuggled with the dog and then came home. Or I tried to. There was a car in my normal parking space. I panicked. A car behind me was not being patient so I went round the block and pulled up at the bottom of my road. I call my mum basically as stressed as I've ever been on the edge of balling my eyes out. In the end I had to park half on the pavement and near a corner which I HATE doing. I walk in the house and the family member is about leaving.

So I basically panicked again and brushed past him asking how he was and went into the kitchen and yes, balled my eyes out.

All these little things just made me have a meltdown but I soon got over it. I convinced my mum to drive down to get me some new bras. Turns out, they didn't have any I liked and the ones I did, they didn't have my size. So it kinda just slowly kept going downhill.

You ask why is this relevant? Well because then I get a message from Hannah 'Are you coming?'. I tried to reject but she is a very persistent person. She rang me when I got home trying for the final time for me to go and at this point I knew I'd regret not going and I would be more annoyed at myself. I decided to flip a coin and it landed on me going. So I was going.

I can honestly say I am glad I eventually got over myself and went.

Despite it being hella awkward with everyone, I enjoyed it. It was raining through the night and t sounded beautiful on the tent. I loved it. I could happily fall asleep to that each night. Late in the day I actually helped with the car show (that was the point of going camping, to help at a car show). I must've woken in a better mood because I eventually happily spoke to people that I didn't know. They asked where the entrance and exit were and I already knew the answer because Hannah had been doing it all morning, which made it easier. At one point I had to help park cars on  my own because Hannah had to sort something out and a bunch of cars came at once. But I did it. And I did it right! I was actually quite proud of myself.

So if you take anything from this long-ass post, try something new that you are afraid of. I did (thanks to Hannah) and I ended up enjoying it.

Adios amigos!xo

Love Island Predictions.

Hey guys,

So as always I will leave a link to my previous post HERE where I rambled about Baby Driver and how much I enjoyed it.

Love Island. If you don't know about this show, you may leave now and go back under the rock you've been under. Seriously though, if you have no idea what this is I'd be shocked. Basically it's a reality TV show with people trying to 'find love' - and win a big sum of money if they last until the end.

I personally quite like the show, everyone else I know hates it but still. I think it's quite interesting and funny at times. Okay maybe I'm addicted to the show but that doesn't matter right?

I'm devastated that it is coming to an end. I think this is the last week its on so I thought why not say what I think of the remaining couples and who I want to win. So enjoy.

There's no order to this but I'm going to start with my least favourite couple. Mike and Tyla. I thought her and Jonny were quite cute but she also did start to become unhappy which is never good - obviously. When Jonny left I thought that she had genuine feelings and would maybe leave in a few days with a recoupling. But it turns out that the next day, Mike re-enters the villa and she's as happy as ever. So honestly now I just think she's putting on a show. As for mike, he just seems very laid back but not in a good way. I just don't think he's having much of an impression as the others.

Sam and Georgia are quite cute. It's still early days for them but I do see them being a cute couple. They both make each other laugh which is always a bonus in any relationship I think. Maybe after a few days, they could become a strong couple in the villa, who knows.

Alex and Montana. Where do I start. They're both beautiful people. To me, they both seem like genuine people. Montana is hilarious I must say, she just has some great 'one liners' that have me laughing and I think that's why a lot of the public will like her. I love these two and they're one of my favourite couples but I cant help but think that there is a chance it's just a show. I don't get that vibe from them but I just think they could get away with it.

Chris and Olivia have had so many arguments already bless them. But that makes me think that there is a genuine connection with them. Tonight they became officially together and it was quite cute to be fair. Even though I watch it alone I did 'awww' at Olivia when she was telling Chris her list. Even though they were little things, they obviously mean something to her. For a while I thought it was just a show with these two, especially how Liv was debating on choosing Mike or Chris for the recoupling. But recently I have grown to like them. I think they have a good shot at being in the top two couples, easily.

Camilla and Jamie are hella cute. I think they are so well suited and they both deserve to be happy. Well I know Cam does, poor girl. She's been through some things in the villa but she's definitely had an impression on the public. She 100% seems honest and genuine, and like she isn't even bothered about the prize money. This just makes me love her more. They are both very intelligent people and you can see that they both just 'get' each other. Its so sweet and I can see it lasting outside the villa too. These are in  my personal top two favourites just because they're just so cute and they seem so well suited. I cant even imagine this being an act from either of them so if it is, I will be surprised.

Gabby and Marcel are amazing. These are my other favourite couple. They both seem like they're both on the same page and care for each other deeply. These two have been official for a while and even though they've had a few bumps they always talk about it like adults and move forward. To me they seem to have the normal issues like jealousy which shows they're another genuine couple to me. If they didn't care for each other at all, they wouldn't get jealous. But I think I want these to win. I hope they win, they deserve it.

Kem and Amber have been through quite a lot just like Chris and Olivia. And yet I do really like them both. Kem is bloody hilarious. Even his bromance with Chris is cute. However I do get a vibe from Amber that it could be for show but I also highly doubt it. It could have just started like that and they've just actually found the connection with each other. With these two I think they will be very popular with the public in the final episode too. Personally I just like Kem as a person, I think he deserves to be happy so I hope that Amber is being honest.

And that's all of them! That took a while... Overall I think it will be between Kem & Amber, Gabby & Marcel, and Camilla & Jamie. But it could be down to any of them, they're all very strong couples. But I will be either voting for Gabby and Marcel or Camilla and Jamie.

Who knows, maybe it'll all change in this next week. All I know for sure is that I'm going to miss being in bed for 9, no matter what. I have no idea what I'm going to do next week, probably cry.

Anyways that's all for this post, I've rambled about nothing this entire post so I'm sorry if this was a waste of your time. Hopefully it wasn't but hey ho.

Adios amigos!xo

Baby driver!

hey guys,

This post is brought to you from my lovely and reliable iPad. Long story short my laptop is downstairs and so is a spider. Therefore I am staying away until said spider has been taken care of. But yes, expect a few spelling errors - and a shorter post.

This week I went to go see Baby Driver, and I must say it is one of the best films I have ever watched. From the trailer I thought it was a good concept but worried that there weren't going to be much more to be shown. You know those sorts of films I'm talking about.

But boy, was I surprised. It was amazing. I won't give any spoilers but it made me laugh, 'aww', and almost tear up a little - a few times. So it definitely had an effect on me that's for sure. I'd honestly happily watch it again, and again, and again.

I think it's going to be one of those films where you've watched it a few times, but you still laugh and have your favourite parts. I'm definitely going to buy this on DVD. Yes DVD, not digital download because lol. It'll be a film that you watch with friends when watching a load of films with pizza, or when you need a feel good film.

I was also very satisfied with the ending. Another thing I was a little worried about. Again, I don't want to give spoilers but it's sad and almost fair. For two separate reasons. I think if you've seen the film you'll know which too parts I mean. A bit before the ending something happens and it's kinda sad but I do think it fits in nicely with the story line, definitely makes you feel for the character. And then later on it's 'fair', I honestly don't know what other word to use.

I was extremely impressed with the film, it's a good one. I also heard that the director heard one of the songs (used in the film) years before and had the idea of a car chase. So he literally made a film around a song. I think that's pretty impressive. The whole soundtrack is honestly amazing. I listened to it today while driving and it was one of the best things. I think they're better when you know the scenes they're from but that's for you to decide.

GO SEE THE FILM GOD DAMMIT.

Adios amigos!xo

End of the college year!

Hey guys,

I'm hoping this post isn't that long so I can sleep more but who knows what will happen. If it happens to fall short, feel free to read my last post HERE.

In my last post I mentioned how the college year was coming to an end and finally I have finished for summer! FINALLY. Not that I am looking forward to the sweaty, sleepless nights and bug infested rooms.

It hasn't really sunken in yet but oh well. Friday was a pretty cool day. Luke (my tutor) bought us in different types of biscuits to much on while he made us compliment each other. I honestly thought this was such a great activity for him to chose to do. I honestly didn't really look at mine until I was leaving because I wanted to see everyone else's reactions first. Turns out that one of my compliments was a favourite too which made me feel all good.

I think in this day and age its hard for someone to compliment others. Especially in person. Some would just assume they're maybe being sarcastic, its definitely ran through my mind a few times. However I do think its important to make others feel good. Say for example you think a dress suits someone, tell them. Even if you've never seen them before in your life, and probably wont ever again. Tell them. It'll make their day. Hell, maybe even their year!

I know a lot of people - British especially, cant take a compliment. For example, 'You look lovey today'. And a classic reply is 'oh don't be silly'... Almost like you cant agree. Just smile and say thank you! Maybe compliment them back.

Its okay to think you look nice. Its okay to think you have a great body. Its more than okay to agree with a compliment. I have been told that I look nice and normally I'll say, 'I know right! Thank you!' But then they laugh and reply with 'wow..' or 'I love me, who do you love?' so I understand why we typically just refuse to take any sort of compliments. But hell why shouldn't we love ourselves? I am getting side tracked here but I think it should be spoken about a lot more.

Anyways, yes it was such a cute activity and I think it was a great way to end the year. He is definitely one of the best tutors there and deserves more recognition.

I already feel ready for next year now. I still have no idea what to specialise in yet but even when I go back, I have a little bit of time to decide. I just want to really push myself. This year I was unmotivated and trying to figure out if I liked it. I was happy with passes,  even though I know I can do a lot better. Next year, I'll nail it.

I've changed and developed a lot as a person this year and I'm quite proud of myself. Last year I was very much more reserved and self conscious than I am now. I still take a while to get comfortable but still I think I have improved. I don't think there is a better group than the one I had this year. They were all so kind, no one ever had a bad word to say. There were no drama, we were all calm and having a lot of laughs - thanks again Luke.

Its been a great year and I'm excited for what next year will bring.

Adios amigos!xo

ANOTHER catch up...

Hey guys,

As always I will leave a link to my previous post so you guys can catch up if you haven't already. Click HERE if you're interested.

This is going to be a nice, chill post. I'm literally just going through all my favourite musicals' soundtracks on Spotify and I'm having a good old time. I'm currently on Calamity Jane, which is one of my ultimate fave films. I need to watch some more actually, I feel like theres a lot more that I haven't seen.

Anyways, this week at college we have all been 'dialling' down. We've practically ready for finishing but there's just the resubmissions and referrals and a final unit which apparently will take a few days. However we have all finished the final project which for my group was to design a bag based on 'Shed'. I wasn't happy with mine but we had a whole fashion show for all the creative and fashion students who contributed. It made me feel like a proud mum honestly. Some people I knew were modelling and to know that we all helped make some amazing pieces made me extremely happy to be with all these great creative people.

I sadly didn't take any photos but it was so cool honestly. The only issue I had with it was the people sat behind me said a snide comment about one of the beautiful ladies modelling. 'You could break that'. Like first off, she has a name - not that I know her but she certainly isn't a 'that'. Secondly I thought we were moving forward with acceptance, all the others there were so supportive and every single one of the models looked stunning, yet these people ruined it. Its all I could think about.
Still it was beautiful.

It's kind of scary that it's coming to the end of the year and I still have no idea what I want to specialise next year. I also desperately need a job to save for my cars insurance next year. It's an understatement to say that I'm crying on the inside. Oh well. I'm sure I'll get there, if not it wont be the end of the world, its cooooool.

Truth is, I've been too happy lately. I don't want a job, I don't want to spend all my possible free time at a job I probably wont like instead of being with awesome people. I do need one though, mum I know you're reading this, don't worry I will get one...soon.

I'm just loving life right now, and I hope you are all too.

It also settled in today that I could've driven to get myself some nuggets from Maccies. I almost did. But the fact that I could just go made me quite happy, although I did feel like an adult and im still unsure of how I feel on that... I'm not ready to adult!!!!

Here's a bomb af selfie (maybe two) from my makeup for Saturday night just because I actually love how it turned out. You are so welcome.

Adios amigos!xo

A big step.

Hey guys,

First of all, I hope you are all well. If you missed last weeks post, you can read it HERE and catch up.

Secondly, happy father's day to my dad (obvs). Well done dad, you and mum managed to create this great specimen of a human. I am so grateful to have you as my dad, even though sometimes your jokes are too bad to even fake laugh at. You support me in all that I do and encourage me to pursue anything that I want. and for that I will always be thankful. Despite how loudly you 'slurp' your cuppas, I wouldn't change you for the world. Love you lots and lots. x

Now for the actual post. If you didn't know, I live in England. And it is quite rare that we get much heat, normally nothing really above 20 degrees Celsius. However we had a few days of a heatwave a few weeks back, it wasn't too bad to be fair, only at college which is basically a greenhouse - literally.
Yeah, well now it seems to be back. It has been up to 29 degrees today and I think a lot of us are unable to function. I honestly don't know how people cope with this sort of heat. We all have a melt down, hahahah, get it?

Today my mum even bought me some shorts and a vest top so I was cooler. I normally only wear thick leggings or jeans and a t-shirt. But because of the heat I had to get over the fact that I have a bit of arm fat, cellulite, chubby stomach and thighs. I know a fair few people are self conscious of something and just stay covered up. Please don't cover up for other peoples sake. Don't apologise for your body. I know its easier said than done but when its really hot, it wont do you any good to over heat. STRUT YOUR STUFF OKAY?!

I took a photo of me today. Messy ass hair, no makeup, with these said shorts on and I don't think I look too shabby. It's taken a lot for me to get to this stage and it is a big step for me. I don't really like making a big thing of this sort of issue but I am honestly proud of myself. So why not document it. We're all friendly here anyways.

I'm going to have to finish this sooner than I thought as moths keep flying into my laptop screen and its not fun. It's actually quite terrifying. I know this post was a bit all over the place but hey, that's me as a person haha. I hope you all enjoy the sun and if you don't, it probably wont last too long anyway.

Adios amigos!xo

P.S. Don't forget sun cream!