Update!

hey guys,

So yes this is another (most likely) boring post, my bad.
I'm currently watching The Vampire Diaries on netflix. I already love it.. however my favourite at the moment is Pretty Little Liars, I have only recently got netflix but I am already caught up and now re-watching the show. I recommend it to everyone.

Anyway, update: I HAVE PURCHASED A SWIM SUIT. And I absolutely love it, I love the style, and I even love it on me. I haven't worn a swim suit or gone in a pool for years and I finally have the guts to do something like swim. Sad, I know. I used to love swimming, especially with my dad. We'd go early in the morning when it was still cold, then we would swim -obviously. But then we would always go upstairs to the cafe, I'd get a muffin and a slush, that was my breakfast every time and it never got old. He would also give me 20p for one of those machines that give you little toys - whatever they're called... I loved that.
I can't wait to do it again.

Hopefully I can encourage my friends to swim with me, that would be nice:)

Yesterday, I surprised my mum with two bunches of flowers. You could see the genuine happiness on her face and honestly that made me feel good too. I like to know I've made someone's day or just made them smile. I want to try and do one little thing everyday. Whether it's for my family, friends, stranger or even myself. I think that would be one of the best things I could/will do.

I am going on a shopping spree with Lia on Tuesday so any new products that I get I may do a review on next Sunday. It will most likely be an item of make-up so, be warned.

Anyway, I love you all!
Adios amigos!xo

College?!

Hey guys,

So recently I've had my induction day at college. And to be quite honest, I thoroughly enjoyed it!
Everyone on my course seemed really friendly which is nice. Even though we all aren't on the same level of the course, and I might not see them around, I guess I still know a good few people who will be going to college.

I am really looking forward to going. Like.. A LOT. It's just going to be strange not seeing most of my close friends everyday. Don't get me wrong I will miss them but I've never been the one to stand out, or be any good at making friends. This is my chance to prove to myself that I can make friends, I can talk to other people. I also like being on my own at times (mostly when I'm down), I like to know I can be independent. So maybe the first couple of weeks will be the best time for me.

I don't really know what else to say except I am so ready for college and I hope that if any of you reading this are also moving up to college, sixth form, maybe even just secondary school, that you feel ready for moving on. I never really have and I'm so glad I am.

It's getting really late and I have been trying to figure something else to write for quite a while but I think I'm going to leave it here and go to bed soooo...I love you all!

Adios Amigos!xo

Ramble About Swimming?

hey guys,

I'm not too sure what this will be about and I still need to figure out a title but oh well. I'll work with it. - (I think this will be more like a diary so beware)
Again, I apologise for not posting, I seem to always give up on things but I refuse to let this go so easily. I love writing these even though you may not even enjoy reading them. Am I rambling already? Oh gosh..

Tomorrow I think I am going to buy myself a swim costume. Yes, you heard me. I haven't worn one of those for maybe a year or even more. I hate my weight and I'm getting tired of being scared to go swimming. I have really been loving Pretty Little Liars right now and Emily loves swimming. And I want to find MY thing. Something I am passionate about, a hobby. I remember how I used to love swimming and how you feel weightless so I think I shall try that first. It probably wont work as I am no where near sporty but if I do like it maybe ill get fitter!

At points I'm really confident and love how I am bigger. I accept myself. But then there's times when I hate my body and just hibernate in my room in the baggiest clothes I can find. I just hope that when I see myself in the swim suit I will just be happy that I'm finally doing something that I might enjoy.

{ If any of you have any idea's I could also try, please let me know! }

I don't really know what else to say but please if you also feel like me, try something out of your comfort zone. Try a swim suit or even just a dress that you wouldn't normally pick up.

I love you all,
Adios Amigos!xo